This week will have a tremendous impact on your life if you are willing to participate in a very specific way. The cosmos is alive and aware and offers us help even when we don’t recognize it! Allow this imagery from Pacha Mama to demonstrate: she is showing me that she is connected to her core while sending strength and support to her surface. It’s like she is standing tall and strong like a brave warrior goddess as the “enemy” comes crashing towards her. She doesn’t flinch or blink, she knows exactly how to be strong and receptive all at once. In this case the “enemy” is not really the enemy but consists of these massive galactic energy waves rolling and rippling through the atmosphere and through the earth. Where are they from? The sun, some of the bigger planets and so far out I can’t quite tell. Their goal is to wash away what no longer serves, what an opportunity and also HOLY MOLY! Pacha Mama says to resist will only cause more issues. So we must stand strong and allow this possibly painful shadow process to occur. This is an example of true surrender. These waves are yet another opportunity to clear out what no longer serves. Stay strong at your center and allow them to wash through you, to do their work so to speak. They can pick up and carry away any stories that you have that you no longer wish to be consumed or controlled by, but you have to be willing. Chances are you will feel your shadows pretty strongly during this “detox,” even if you have identified what you want to let go of and are willing. You may feel sad as you say goodbye to “old friend stories and ways.” Stay the uncomfortable course, breath and know that this to shall pass. Take time for reflection, self care, feet on the earth and gratitude for this wild experience we have on earth.
Ohhhhh La La the heavenly body of pacha mama (mother earth) is lighting up this week, her meridian lines are bright and flowing swiftly. This can look and feel differently for each one of us. As your body mirrors the earth and the cosmos you may find that your energy is flowing too! It may feel intense, it may feel manic, or pleasant even, you may feel inspired to fly to the stars and back, or it could feel like a detox as old clogged areas dislodge. Listen to the wisdom that is your body, as all the elements dance for balance. In the areas where spring is happening it could feel even more intensified. Pacha mama is speaking in a loud whisper, all over, sharing with those who have “eyes to see and ears to hear,” how to provide her with some healing at this time. Listen and act, no matter how strange it may seem. She needs you. If you live near her meridian lines or her chakras (lay lines/vortexes), celebrating her on these spots amplifies it. Think about when you receive acupuncture, it’s sort of like that! As the week begins to take shape, there is a lightness forming to the earths energetic crust, sort of like last week and it can seem or feel “unstable,” creating a sensation of being ungrounded, not being able to truly find your feet. This can show up in the situations that arise or in your physical/emotional bodies. This is an opportunity to discover what truly offers you the sensation of feeling rooted. Where do I need to root? What part of myself wants to root? “What does it feel like to root?” The planetary energies at this time continue to speak with domineering voices “the king, dictator, ruler, manager etc.” and we will continue to experience the tightening of the “grip” of hierarchies, big business and the dominant archetypes within ourselves and others. Watch for how certain marketing campaigns and messages make you feel... do they drive you mad, or deeper into a "sleep?" Can you feel the difference between loving social media and not, what is the energy behind their messages? All of this can provide you with a serious chance to forgive others, surrender, find compassion and dive deep into self love as you listen to these voices within yourself and make the changes you have been seeking. Remember they get louder the more you announce you are moving in the opposite direction from them. Re-discover the tools you have in your pocket (I know you have them) to dialogue with your fears and the stories and voices you have accepted as yours. This type of discipline or practice is a choice to live more fully! How does the “dictator or judge” in me sound/look/think/feel? How do they speak when their feet do not feel firmly planted.” When “the king” doesn’t feel grounded and is not in tune with their benevolence, this can become a reactionary period from subconscious fears. Expect to experience this in it’s small and larger forms and use it as an opportunity to find yourself more grounded and inspired to change your stories. Corporations may become more dogmatic, or opportunities for true shift to a place of love can occur. Again, remember as we move towards love all the stories about why we shouldn’t surface. YAY, time to clean house and discover new ways of being. As the week moves on, some of these cosmic/planetary dominating voices begin to grind slowly and loudly to a halt. The dominant voice has often been associated with the “masculine” and as it comes to a pause, what governs what we might label as the masculine this week begins its shift, this will be happening for some time as both the masculine and feminine begin a new dance. This is a time where discovering our true divine masculine and feminine are pivotal. The planet has already been expressing this in all of its iterations via all the ways we can label gender, what a creative place we live! Can you tune into your internal divine masculine and feminine without any preconceived labels or ideas of what this looks like. It is unique inside each one of us. They may look like something you have never experienced before. And just remember: masculine, feminine, dark, bright, heavy, light, it’s all an expression of duality so that we may experience and express! As the week begins to come to an end we will see the ripples from the beginning of the week expressed, and we may even see this expressed physically by the earth as well. But the earth will begin to quiet a bit in some areas and you will have a chance to tune into her this way, turn inwards, integrate and rest. Enjoy the peaceful pause and come out next week with your new inspirations, awarenesses and new self, knowing that the planet needs your light at this time! Aho Mitakuye Oyasin
Last week energetically the earth had a few days of intense shining from the inside out, lighting up surface spots all over earth with her rays coming from within. It provided huge amounts of sun like energy right at the ground level where the rays pushed through the earth and massive amounts of "qi/chi" in the atmosphere. This may have affected folks by intensifying what was already feeling "too much" or assisted in the awareness of what needs to change or fall away. For most on the planet it could have just felt like a really awful week. Mid to end of the week pacha mama (mother earth) went more internal and her energetic crust hardened, showing us all how to return inside for some rest and rejuvination. Spring is upon us in many parts of the earth and this energy of transformation continues into this week. Pacha mama's energetic crust has dried a bit and lightened, it is beginning to break a part, allowing for emergence through. Specifically for us humans this energy will help one come "eye to eye" with our old ways, as we metaphorically rise through our "crust!" We will be provided the opportunity to see, up close, what our old patterns are and as we continue to emerge, shed them and keep them shed with new behaviors and new ways. As we rise through the crust the energy turns from an external seeing and awareness to an internal more physical awareness... Later in the week we may begin to feel how these old patterns are affecting our physical well being. For many of you this could look like a health wake up call, for others things like aches and pains may increase. These are all your "sacred symptoms" asking you for your attention. Pay attention, for it's an opportunity to clear away and let your light shine. It's an even deeper opportunity to love yourself. It's also an occasion to face your mortality, something we don't embrace in our culture, but when done, it can allow you to live right from your pure center, free of stories! The planet needs your light at this time. Like the earths crust, cracks are beginning to deepen this week even more in the major systems and corporations that bring heavyness and negativity to our culture. We may even see some major shifts in these systems. Remember we are getting a close look at what needs to fall away so it may not "look" like what you want it to look like, but don't misread it just because you are so deeply entrenched in it. This could be a great time to seek a healer that you trust, to shut off outside influences like the news and tv and just feel yourself, find your true self. Remember Pacha Mamas energy is high for the first half of the week. She is poking and provoking these shifts that can feel both totally painfull and also profoundly amazing when you realize and have "AH HA" moments! Towards mid to end of the week she goes inside again, taking this transformational power internal, this can help you to really bring awareness to any physical issues, to listen to them so that you can get into a solution. Last week and this week feel like wave after intense wave, perhaps like you just can't catch a break, or a breath. Remember we are learning how to surrender and then how to ride the waves of life that allow our spirits to breathe and express in new and profound ways. The waves are the way, the suffering is showing us exactly how we need to shift. It is the opposite side of the same coin as self love. When the fire of transformation gets hot, breathe, breathe sweet ones and allow it to burn off what no longer serves you. Get excited, channel the pain of suffering into the phoenix rising! Aho Mitakuye Oyasin (Love to all my relations)
For years this part of me has been Infuriated and moved by the lack of awareness around me. It feels like a complete injustice, how could others not get it, not step up and make their surroundings a better place to be? In reaction, I have no time for this nonsense, no compassion, only heat, fire and a call to action. It is all that I can see is needed. The fire is so powerful, a blessing and a curse. I draw my sword, hear the blade sing as it pulls against it’s holster and I roar, pulling my broad shoulders back, jaw unhinged, long matted haired laying down my back. I am a strong brute of a viking, the vibration of my bellow intends to wake others from their selfish slumbers. With hope and rage, I wonder for the millionth time if a team of others will gather to help, to make change!
I am raging and yelling and doing but now, years later, having accomplished so much, I still face the same story, and I am not really sure what it is I have accomplished that matters?! To always be the workhorse. Is this even the truth? It is certainly a reality I have created. But I am moving out of this, into a space where I am seen. I must prepare to be seen. I am excited and nervous. I have so much to share, like a well that never empties. I no longer want to spend time with dull lights but there is fear that I will not shine if not surrounded by dull. I honor this intensely strong Viking and I honor this deep sadness that I feel under all the brutish exterior. I have been this Viking for ever, as though I have been carrying it around through lifetimes, and I am tired and weary trying to convince others to the fight. I have leather worn skin and sadness in my eyes, all I really want is to be held, to feel soft and safe to know the tender touch of love and to receive it. I have been carrying the pressure, the weight on my shoulders and on my heart. I feel toughened, hard, old and unloveable even though I desire love so. I see now that no one can see the powerful song of my heart because I have covered it over with so much metaphorical and physical armor. The armor of a martyr, who’s true gifts have become malformed due to misappropriation.
I forgive and love this Viking, I hold them in my arms and stroke the leathery skin. I put my hand on it’s heart, and thank them, for they have served me in so many ways. I will call on it’s wisdom, and I will find a way to remold the passion and fire into helpful tools. Just as this very Viking’s quest was to wake others up to the fight, I will become awake to myself. I was just as they were, just as asleep, projecting my blindness onto others, not seeing the mirror. In this recognition, I will find compassion for those I have felt anger and injustice towards, I will recognize their sleep as deep and impenetrable, this may be most challenging without an inner softening. I hope to surrender and turn over the weight, to rest knowing that the earth supports my body and that the love in my heart is returned to me in a million different ways.
Within us is everything possible, not new news to you I bet, but a deep reminder. If I can crave, I can be satisfied. If I am joyful, I can be sad and it goes on and on all day all the time through our thoughts, emotions sensations and physical existence. The beauty of this, I realized, is when you are fighting something you think you shouldn't be, for example, addiction. We find ourselves in battle with this word and physical existence, yet we forget there is a flip side to the coin. Probably many coins and many sides, as it will show up in many ways in our physical body, emotions and mind. To recognize that we have two sides, one might say, we are everything, and it is contained all within the mind/body/spirit network. You are already complete. Embrace it all. That doesn't mean go out and binge on whatever you may be addicted to. It means notice it, with curiosity, as it is a teacher. It is not here so that you can hate yourself, although you might find self loathing is the driver. But what is on the other side of self loathing? Self love. We have it all folks. I have to believe that is why we are here. . .to experience the power of us, we must be the reflection and the mirror, all of it.
I finished a front body opening half hour of yoga with Ana Forrest online and I sat outside on the back patio. Drying leaves perfumed the air the sun rich and warm on my skin the breeze caressing me. I felt loved. Feeling the warm hunk of granite under me, i slid my pant legs up over my knees and rested my soft belly on my legs stroking my feet, looking at my shins, noticing a small fuzzy spider moving quickly across the bricks. I gazed at my leg hair that I have been allowing to grow, and this simple action unearthed, in a sudden rush, an amazement for the way the hairs just were, they were so beautiful, their pattern like the ocean waves. What a gorgeous creation, just growing, just being, pure consciousness, right there, along my skin. Their waves evoking in me a tender sadness: how I for years have been cutting these hairs off my body, in this moment it seemed so violent, an act of defiance and anger. I recognized all the sorrow I held for all those things I do to myself, without even questioning or thinking, because of some agreement I have with the collective society. Who said I have to be this way or that way, what the hell? Understanding the need to label to understand and also how detrimental that can be. I sat and cried for all the people that live in this world, each a beautiful being just because. How we continue to twist and block the opportunities for everyone to just be. We stop seeing ourselves and in turn we stop seeing one another. We begin living in a reality that is not the truth. My heart breaks for the love and creativity that we could have but we cut and shave and dye and reject and suppress away into the dark recesses of ourselves the shining light. Me included. We are all one giant I AM, how are we supposed to see ourselves and our potential if we are to busy plucking this or changing that? Aren't we missing the true moment. I wish I could hold these aware, heart opening glimpses with me at all times. To remember the harm I cause myself or others, how we are all inevitably connected by ripples of thought and action. Do no harm, wow, that is a huge undertaking. Huge. Yet so precious in its teaching. So precious.
I am reminded this morning that it is time to "go back to school." The school of self re-creation. Where I am both the teacher and the student, where I have the honor of being the artist and the art. Have you been feeling lately like the things that used to work for you aren't anymore, that your world is getting shaken up and stirred, that you are facing parts of you that you don't really work anymore but that you are still plodding along in your old ways? Well, I feel this way and I don't think I am alone, so this is my reminder to me and you that our vision can change and our world around us will change too. Our brain creates our world and our brain is so changeable, that is enough to inspire hope and passion for change. So, sit down, and get very specific about what habits you want to break, get it down on paper or computer. Now write down all the thoughts you have that keep you in the current habits, this way you will recognize them when they come up. It's a gorgeous step towards loving yourself. But thinking it isn't enough to make the change. You must make steps, even the smallest ones, this is intention. These steps will send messages to the spaces inside you (we are mostly space) and these spaces will begin to vibrate differently, causing your neural connections to change, in turn your brain will send different hormones to your body, causing your cells to change, and they will begin to seek these new hormone imprints. This will in turn shift your energy meridians and luminous field or magnetic feld: what you look through will be new, and therefore what you attract will be different. Pay attention to synchronistic moments to tell you that you are on the right path. Walking in Dharma is much more satisfying! Good luck my love, you are a powerhouse of potential. Live up to it, you ARE the GIFT!
Hello LOVE! Consider that you are love, not what loves you. Consider how you express love, based on your insides alone, not what you think others will accept or like. Joy is a vessel for love. I hope your entire self and mine, expands into this place today, even if for just a moment. Maybe, just maybe we will be lucky enough to meet one other, and share this very moment! What is your definition of love?!
I have been awakened many mornings to the same conversation in my head with the same person. Someone who I care deeply about. It’s not a fun conversation and I have this gnawing need to resolve it. Many a morning I have rolled my eyes in annoyance that it has come back to bother me and then relegated it into some dark recess. Other times I have full conversations with this person and I feel resolved, but only for a bit, and then it comes back, drooling for more. In my resolutions, I just may be right, and have the sweetest, most peaceful intentions, but you see, it doesn’t matter, if you keep coming nose to nose with these scarred, foul breathing, knuckle dragging creatures IE the sticking points, they are all yours, all freaking yours! And what you keep wanting to change about the other, or the point you keep trying to make is that very thing the drooling creature is keeping you from seeing or my dear, BEING. In my case, today, it is the sweetest, most beautiful, tender heart that one could ever imagine existed. And by tender I do not mean bruised. I mean pure life force, love, so profound that it senses this in all things. It embraces all, because it is all. We each have one. It is the power house of this human-soul manifestation, it is the true brain. When you recognize the gift in this, you can take a deep breath, kiss that smelly beast on the nose and surrender to your soft heart. It is then and only then that you can realize that this is your true super power.
Imagine sweet one, that you have manifested so that you can feel so greatly, that you can have the experience of expressing emotion as sensation and redirect it’s power for healing; to help you come into balance, as some say “to remember who you are,” and in turn, you will shift the expression of your vibration. Every single thing is vibrating. When you are feeling down or maybe numb, perhaps judging that you feel too intensely, consider that as humans our emotions feel more intense for a purpose. They are glorious! They, like all things come from pure energy, what I call pure love. If you can begin to observe an emotion as a sensation, even if just for a brief fluttering moment, and make no judgement, to behold it’s power instead, imagine what we might notice, we could see their gifts. Thank them for arising so that we may learn to harness their power, to ride their waves, like a surfer. As one who walks this earth, imagine for a moment that you are a keeper of this grand planet and that your vibration matters, it is connected to the earth and all that walk it, that your magnetic field and body, that are made up of all the elements (earth, wind, water, fire) are a direct and beautiful mirror of this earth with its own magnetic field and same elements. Imagine that if we learn to harness our personal senses, aka expressions of the elements, that we will in turn learn to harness the elements of the earth in seemingly magical ways, more creatively than we see today, more sustainably than we see today, in perfect harmony with the earth, like a creative dance. When you connect with your true, unique rhythm, your one sound that when vibrating with others who have connected, creates a harmony, a sound that is the sound of this universe. Pacha mama (mother earth) loves this vibration, she is also a part of this vibration. When you are with yours, you will hum along with her heartbeat. When you feel content and reawakened after being in nature, consider this a peek into your gift, your music. Aho mitakuye oyasin.